i feel like my life is on pause. i dont want to go anywhere, i dont want to see anyone. i have gained so much weight from this process, although i am not sure if it's from all the meds or all the stress eating. i want to cry all the time. i hate going through this. i have had 3 failed iui's and one failed ivf/icsi and tomorrow is my transfer for ivf/icsi #2 and i just know it's not going to work. i resent anyone who tries to tell me - dont worry, it will happen.
i hate it when we have to have dinner with people and i have to pretend everything is great and talk to them about their children!!!! i am happy for people have been blessed with children but at the moment i just can't take having to discuss it. so many of my friends are pregnant right now. i just wish i didnt have to see anyone at all.
sorry for all the negativity just had to vent a little.