I am devastated, yesterday I was supposed to make some plans for our DE IVF and my husband expressed that he was not sure about the whole thing and he was evaluating his options. I asked him what that means evaluating your options.
He is not a very expressive man so I needed a lot of patience to nicely talk to him. I do not want to bore you with all the details, but the matter is that he told me that he did not want kids anymore, we are too old to have kids, he is tired of the whole process and he understand how important that is for me and we do not want the same out of life anymore. We had long and polite discussion, but he told me that he did not want kids. I am still not sure what options he is evaluating, but it does not looks good.
I am 44 years old almost 45, I am not sure even if I will be able to have kids, but I want to try, I really want to a kid. I do not want to be 60 and think back and regret not having try. At the same time, if I have a divorce I am not sure I want to be a single mom, my child needs a father and I do not have time to wait for another man. I am so hurt, I have cried the whole day, I feel that I hate him right now.
I will appreciate any advise.