This was my first IVF experience and used donor eggs due to diminished ovarian reserve. I met my soulmate/husband 3 yrs ago and we are both older (I am almost 38 he is 42). We want to have a family yet unfortunately we met too late in life. My insurance doesn't cover donor IVF so it cost us most everything we have. Anyway when we saw a positive we were so excited. But our joy was short lived. Here are my betas:
13 dp 5dt: 75
15 dp 5dt: 85
19 dp 5dt: 200
21 dp 5dt: 225
I am having an ultrasound today but am expecting this to result in a miscarriage. The past week has been one of the most difficult in my life. I have become depressed and can barely get through the day. I just want it over. I can't help but to think I would of rather seen a BFN than go through this. I am trying to see any positive in the fact it actually attached. Does that mean anything positive? Are my chances better for another BFP than if it it didn't work at all? Anyone else feel this way???