Hi there
There are some great threads here but it seemed rude to but in on a well-established one (not to mention a bit overwhelming to get up to speed with everyone there!), so I thought I'd start one of my own.
I passed that awful milestone, 40, last September. We've been TTC for 2 and a bit years. My DH is 8 years younger than me. Luckily we have no MF issues - it is all with me, down to my aging eggs. We've done 2 fresh IVF cycles and 4 transfers in all. I'm currently in the middle of my third stim cycle - EPU most likely Monday. I have 8 follicles according to yesterday's scan. This time we're growing to blast. I'm feeling very anxious at this point, which is only natural I suppose, and also a bit depressed due to all the hormones I'm pumping into myself!
I'm getting heartily sick of this whole thing, and cannot wait for the time when it is resolved one way or the other - either with a successful pg or by deciding we have done our best and it is time to move on! My ultimate deadline is end-2006 but frankly I would like to make a decision one way or the other by mid-2006. As you can see, I'm not that hopeful about this IVF. I'm sure everyone here knows and appreciates how difficult this is at our age, hence my pessimism. It's been such a long journey - I desperately wanted a child at age 30 with another partner, he did not. So in many ways I feel as though I have been pursuing this for longer than 2 years, IYKWIM. Somewhere along the way you start to prepare yourself for the fact that it may never happen, and to almost be OK with that!
Hope to hear from some of you in the same boat.