I just got a negative yesterday - I was 7 days post 5 day transfer.
None of our previous cycles got this far - the first time we got to Day 12 of stims before they told me that it wasn't working and they canceled the cycle - with no previous warning that there were any problems. The second cycle was canceled almost straight away because I had cysts (that were formed from the follicles from the previous canceled cycle) and now this - the furthest we got.
My husband was sure all the way through that this was our successful cycle - he foresaw twins, boys. He saw our future. I didn't feel positive about it from day one - I think I was tired from the long cycle we had just been through and I relied on him to keep my spirits up and keep us going. As things progressed further and further I dared to believe that it just might work.
But when the bleeding started I knew it wasn't right. And reading other people's experiences, I knew it wasn't the spotting that they were talking about from the embryos attaching.
After the bloods were taken yesterday morning, we went to see our nurse and I could see from her face that it wasn't going to be good. So we took our time and sat whilst I cried until it had sunk in a bit.
I feel so bad for my husband. Whilst it was me taking the drugs and expanding, and trying to do everything I could to make it work, he has had to stand by me, support me and watch me. What more could he have done? He looks so tired and I don't know what to do to make him better.
And I feel so tired and I don't know what to do to heal myself. I know I am still full of hormones and it's going to take time for them to leave my body, I have no idea how to carry on and get ready for the next cycle.
How do you get hope back?