I have answered a few threads thus far but would like to reach out if I may as support is so greatly needed and appreciated. Here is a little bit of my story.
I was married and we tried many years to have a child. i had an ectopic pregnancy about 12 years ago which started my research into infertility clinics and processes. Unfortuanately my marriage dissolved and my course took me other places and my idea of having the \"perfect\" home life did not allow me to continue my search into ivf. 2 years ago, I changed my mind. After unsuccessful relationships I decided to do this on my own and here I am. I tried 2 ivf protocols here in my home town of St. Louis with no success and I am on my 4th with a clinic in Colorado. It has been a long road of surgeries, traveling, and of course: shots, emotions and disappointment. But I am very hopeful. I just did my 4th transfer which was an FET and I am due tomorrow to do my pregnancy test. I am nervous and a bit impatient. The last time I did this I had a friend and my mother over and we spent the day making cookies and being happy and hopeful and then the phone call. I am dreading the phone call but also am looking forward to it. I have had very sore breasts for a week and some very slight cramping in my abdomen. I am going to take that as a good sign. I cheated and did a HPT but it was negative. I'm okay with that because they are seldom correct. i just wanted to fend off the stress of the wait a little if I could. Looks like Ill have to wait after all.
This is my last shot at this. I'm 44 and I told myself that 4 times was it. When do you stop? I am so very hopeful I am pregnant: it is what I have always wanted more than anything else. I have been praying for a Virginia Kathleen for a long time and I hope she will be there.
Anyway, I'm sure we all have our stories and they could warrant hours of talk over a nice caffeine free beverage.. 
but I just wanted to tell a little of my story. I'm scared out of my mind doing this on my own but at the same time I welcome it. I am stable, have a huge family for support, have a great job and am old enough to know what I'm getting into. It took me awhile to reach beyond what I always thought was the perfect family unit, I am ready and strong to be the best mom ever.
Thanks for listening and I'm hoping for good news tomorrow.
-T