We were supposed to be doing a natural cycle FET transfer the end of May. Since my cycles have decided to go haywire (apparently since having the twins I've been ovulating really late and not knowing it - found out when I started OPKs in prep for the natural FET). So now, in part due to the delay and in part due to the added funds required for a medicated cycle, we're looking at July.
WHY is it now that every preggo in my building is just now "showing"? I just got out of the restroom and one was talking about how she can't hide it anymore because it's "so obvious". She didn't even mention being preggo but I KNEW that's what she was talking about and when I got out of the stall I was right.
DO NOT get me wrong, I realize how blessed I am to have my twins and have gotten pg with them on my fresh cycle. And we have 4 frozen embies from that cycle. But it's also likely this FET will be the last, because thaw rates are rarely 100%. I never wanted the twins to be my last pregnancy and the thought of that makes me so sad.
We've discussed switching to DP in January when our insurance changes if the FET doesn't work. But even that holds a lot of emotional issues for me. Her desire to be pg has only RECENTLY surfaced, and now I feel like ALL of my desire to birth another is solely dependant on this single FET cycle.
And the limbo in between? Sucks.