So, our 10th anniversary is coming up this summer. I hate hate hate that I'm going to be married for 10 years and still don't have children. I feel like people think we're freaks or something. Or damaged. I feel damaged.
Anyway- here's the situation. The weekend of our anniversary we have a wedding out of town. DH booked a suite at the lodge and invited friends to stay with us. Go figure, our friends accepted and are bringing their 3 children. KILL ME NOW. I had a fit over this but there's no point- DH and this guy are the only guys in the wedding party and it's the last room at the lodge so we're stuck.
So... we figured we'd go a couple days early, just me and DH, stay somewhere else- maybe a b+b, and celebrate our 10th together (it falls on that Thursday). Well, lo and behold, the other friends are going early now too AND they are having a golf outing on Friday morning w/ the groom (which means I'll be chilling w/ the mom and kiddos, of course). So I'm starting to feel like doing something alone w/ DH on Thursday is just silly and we should just skip the whole freaking anniversary celebration all together. Doesn't feel like a celebration anyway. Feels like a big date to mark our (my) failure at life. DH doesn't get nearly as rattled as me over this stuff.
I\'ve been fighting with DH about this all day and have been crying on and off for hours. I don't know what's happening to me lately, I'm coming undone!!!
I don't really expect anyone to have the answer but I'm sitting here alone and feeling so very... alone. So I figured I'd vent it away on here.
Going to open a bottle of wine now. Bummed that I missed the drinking party here the other day.
K