I am sure this sounds like a really stupid question but I am confused and bewildered (by both this question and honestly BFing in general Image may be NSFW.
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DS I think is in midst of another growth spurt... 60 to 75 minute cycle all night last night, he is much fussier (especially at night), and is sleeping more during the day (wakes to eat every 60-90 minutes but hen back to sleep). I think that all adds up to a growth spurt - if not and this is just a new regular pattern I may kill myself!
ANYWAY b/c of frequency of feedings last night I did not get much sleep and ended up giving baby to DH at 4am and asked if he could please just give me a small break (there is no way for me to nap during the day)...so he got a supplemental bottle at 4am (4oz). Since I was sleeping I did not pump which means I am behind one session and 4 oz...
Add to that, I had to take DS#1 to some appointments from 9am-1pm today and during that time I left 2 bottles each 3oz...he drank both those (9am and 11am) but the baby sitter ended up having also to give a supplement 4 oz at 1pm. I pumped at 8:30 before we left and again at 1 when we got back. but again that means I am behind one more session and another 4 oz.
I am now "behind" DS in 8 oz of milk and I have no idea how to catch up. He nurses every 2 hours during the day and I am scared to pump after I feed him since I will only get 1-1.5 oz (which is depressing) and add to that DS#2 is fussing and DS#1 is a holy terror (is this just hard for me b/c I know many of you have this much and more on your plate and you all seem to make it work!). At night he is cluster feeding all night so if I try to pump then I would just go from DS to pump back to DS with no breaks all night. I am already living on the edge of sanity and if I do that I am pretty sure I will fall apart.
Like I said I know many of you do this with older kids in the picture, with twins etc HOW DO YOU DO IT!!! I really feel I am so stupid and incompetent with this stuff that it just depresses me. I really want to BF but does it have to be soo hard!!
Are there any hints, tips, tricks, to catch up when I am behind on supply or do I just admit defeat and supplement? I have also had a hard time (physically and I admit mentally) finding time and energy to pump in general so I have no built up "stash". Any hints on that also?
sorry to be such a pest and always need help.
