So I'm hoping there is somebody out there right now I can talk to. I don't remember ever feeling as alone as I do right now. I was basically told I am infertile after going through over a year of treatments now. My DH and I have decided to go with a donor egg but after months of waiting still no match. I decided to go try another agency but the agency fee is $5K and the donor wants $9K then she would undergo legal counseling and psycological counseling before she would go through any medical tests to determine if she actually is fertile. So I could blow $15+K just to find out she isn't even fertile. This seems like such a scam. My DH is fine so I feel guilty daily that I am the one keeping us from having kids. We never fought much before and now it seems like an everyday occurance. Not only are we stressed out about the baby situation but it seems like financing it all is causing too much strain. And of course to make matters worse my only friend without a kid just announced that she is pregnant after trying for a whole two months. My DH yells at me for being sad about it and I put on a happy face for her (b/c I truly am happy for her) but every time we talk now it is just a reminder of what I can't have and can't provide for my husband. I guess I just need someone to talk to and I apologize in advance for complaining b/c I know a lot of you out there have gone through worse and have probably dealt with it a lot better than I seem to be dealing with it right now
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