New baby dd is home, and my precious older dd age 3 1/2 is giving me the hardest time. I am recovering from a c-section, have a cold, and am sleep deprived. Just coughing while having this incision has been really painful. Baby was up about every hour and a half last night. I feel awful and the guilt for the older child is tremendous. My parents are here, but dd wants me and is really acting out and I am holding in tears all the time because I feel so bad for her, and because I arm so tired and feel so crappy physically.
I am an only child and always wanted a sister. I am so happy for my girls to have each other and I know from my last c-section that everything goes back to normal eventually. I just need to get by these first couple weeks.